letter for Sarita : my life partner

Dear,
Lots of warmth from inner core of my heart to radiate you with love. Sarita, I am helpless today, in course; I want to share with you, may be it my final decision. Sarita, today I felt that I walked distant away from you. I feel like I am unable to reach you. I can see , I glare; its the death castle around here. Its welcoming me. My dreams, our moments should return back, but how? The lips that kiss you, are dried and weathered. The place where I wanted to construct our dream house, is filled with bik stub-born rock. Its now a cold stone, I can't find a help.
The ways that I'm leading with, are chopped. I wonder, if you become hurt with my sorrows, I wonder, it may hurt you. I wanna see you smile forever. I did some mistakes not understanding you and your feelings, now its too late. But I dream, you and me, together. I've not a desire to live, but indeed a desire to be forever with you. But why I'm dreaming? Is rejoice possible with me? You may say: No. I also think so.
Sarita, you've always been a platform of emotions and love. But I left you. How can I count your feelings from a distance? I'm a sinner. I made a sin brought by situations, deliberate sin in search of happiness. But what happiness? you're not with me. I'm sorry, forget this about me and our moments.
Sarita, you are great. You are true lover. You may change your paradigms. Please, don't try to reinstall our memories in your life. Its over, otherwise again pain. I might be making painful moments again in your life, indeed more sins. I don't do that, cause I love you. I love you. I will be forever away from you, wish you be blessed always, love you.
forever yours,
Mohan.